17wks 4days - Exhaustion

This is a new feeling for me. I've worked 3 days this week so far, and I have a day at the clinic tomorrow, and another hospital day on Friday. I don't know how I'm going to keep doing this. I'm exhausted. When I made this schedule, I didn't see any reason not to do this. The overtime is always a good thing, and we're trying to save up so that I won't have to work after the baby arrives. Childcare is included right now, you know. But this is rediculous. My body is tired, I feel like I eat all the time but I'm still hungry. I look more fat than pregnant. At this point the chub that I had on my belly originally is just sticking out, so it's not really round and cute--just fat. And in case you can't tell, I'm feeling just a tad bit irritable these days.

At the end of my work day, when I realize that I haven't drunk enough, eaten enough, or peed in hours and I'm about to explode, I start to get the idea that this body isn't mine to use and abuse anymore. I have to get a break to eat, pee, and drink if I'm going to make it through this. And, more than just my complaints, my body starts to tell me at the end of these days that this is not ok. I've been cramping pretty regularly at the end of my work day, which is not a good thing. So, this weekend will be about rest, and next week I have 3 days off in a row to rest, and from now on, my baby needs as much attention as my patients. Now, off to bed.

It's a girl! - 16wks 6days

Well, I have to admit, I pretty much had it in my mind that this would be a boy. Not that we had any way of knowing, but the odds were pointing that way. I guess that's the thing about odds--somebody's gotta be the 15%, you know? I was so used to the idea of a boy, that I've really been looking for a penis for a couple of weeks now, and I keep showing Dan these pictures and saying, "it could be either one, we can't really be sure," but my coworkers have been saying, "ooh it really might be a girl!!"

Tonight, it was unmistakable. Those are labia, and Izzy is a girl! (No, we still don't have a name--sheesh! give us some time!) By the way, Dan was adorable when I told him. He's so excited about a little girl, and he can't wait to meet her, and quite frankly, I can't wait to see him meet her! Just imagine, Dan as a daddy, and holding his little princess...aww!

14wks 3days - The old pants are officially retired

Today I wore my favorite jeans for probably the last time this year. Sitting at the Panera Bread, meeting with Kathryn, my mentor, I realized that I couldn't sit forward to eat or talk. In fact, I had to unbutton my pants and was glad I had a long sweater on over them. I bought some maternity pants at the Goodwill (1/2 off on the 4th saturday of every month!) for a couple of bucks, but they're still quite baggy. Oh well, I guess it's on to sweats and scrubs for a while--at least they're adjustable :)