Went to the birth center and saw JoAnn again today. Got my antibiotics refilled, and got an exam to see if I'm still leaking fluid. Good news is that I'm not, which decreases the worry for infection. We're still going to monitor things with blood draws and NSTs periodically, but no one is anxious to induce me or anything like that.
Meanwhile back at home, I had an adventurous evening of contractions. Some nice and strong, some pretty darn mild, and no regular pattern that stays with me more than an hour or so, but it seems like each day my body does a little more of this start and stop contracting. As Pat says, we're taking a meandering path to birth. Which is just fine since my cervix appeared to still be long and not very dilated on that exam this afternoon. It's going to take a lot of these contractions to soften it up and get it to dilate. So, right now, I'm typing standing up, because it's easier to deal with the contractions in that position. They've been every two minutes for the past couple of hours, but they're starting to slow down now. I'm going to try heading to bed--it is pretty late, and poor Dan and Cocoa are already snoozing.
First, though, a song that keeps playing through my mind. Emotionally, I'm so very up and down. It's so exciting that we're this close, and so disconcerting that we still don't know how close we are. There's a song by Mercy Me that I keep humming and thinking, and it's funny because this is one of those few times when any of us would actually wish for the pain to start. I didn't like this song at first because when I was thinking of rain, I was thinking of tragedy, but it turns out that really, I have an opportunity to praise Him even in the middle of this waiting game. And maybe the pain of just plain old labor is enough without imagining "tragedies." Anyway, here are the lyrics (and you can youtube it to hear the song, I'm sure)--
Bring The Rain
by MercyMe
I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that
I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings
You glory And I know there'll
be days When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to
praise You Jesus, bring the rain
I am yours regardless of the clouds that may
loom above because you are much greater than
my pain you who made a way for me suffering
your destiny so tell me whats a little rain
Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy
is the lord God almighty
is the lord God almighty
I'm forever singing
everybody singing
Holy holy holy
you are holy
you are holy
No comments:
Post a Comment