Wow, it's been a while since I've been able to post, though I've been journaling at home. A lot has happened in a few weeks. The same week that Uncle John passed away, we lost a member of our church to suicide. Just as we were getting home and beginning to process everything, the Virginia Tech shootings rocked our world again. Yet, in the middle of the sadness and grief, Dan passed his exam for his contractor's license, we were baptized this past Sunday, and we've been celebrating the growth of this little one who now makes my belly visibly move when she kicks! Emotionally, there have been so many swings up and down, and the lesson has definitely been how unchanging God is.
There's a study I'm doing with my friend Kathryn called the Destined series. Throughout the study, they reinforce the faith principal, which relies on the fact that once you've established that the Word of God is true, you can trust it, even if your emotions and circumstances tell you otherwise. This is the essence of faith. Not believing in something when it feels right, and then abandoning it when it no longer produces the same emotions, but trusting that a good decision has been made and sticking with it. The same thing applies in marriage--you make a committment, a decision, and you stick with it, even when it's hard, even when it doesn't feel right. The only reason I can honestly see sticking with someone who is human and capable of hurting me so deeply, though, is because there is a God that I can trust. I know that the people around me will fail me, hurt me, leave me at some point--it's unavoidable in this life. However, God promises to never do those things, and even more, to give us new life without those inevitable pains, and that is something that's worth my faith.
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